Death.

i often said that the walls surrounding me were scribbled with words, mirroring the insanity of communication surrounding me before i was contained to that box. white walls, white-washed, a clean blank pure canvas, my dreams echoing around me in pure language.

i have the power to tell right from wrong. this is an intensely volatile skill of mine. i've been given sharp utensils as a mistake. i take them and scratch on surfaces. incise and let the feeling flow however it desires. the results are infinite. long and windy, released of any regulations, reaching beyond the corner, beyond the length width, beyond the box. eventually there becomes a saturation beyond comprehension. language, words, as you and i thought we knew them, cannot speak these marks. i can listen vastly or deeply and hear it, see it clearly as an aura both surrounding and penetrating me, and make my decision from that point onward… while sitting in this room with nothing but white light.

Hunger..Nourishment..Survival

27

changing to

41

27. Hunger
Line 2: Hunger is at its top. Rejecting the customary. With an empty mouth, undertakings bring misfortune. Needing something a lot, but rejecting the usual way of getting it. This makes it hard to undertake things.

Hex 27's about nourishment, about getting fed. Getting fed, in the context of your question, is getting love. For me, Hex 27 is one of the most mysterious hexagrams in the Yi. I mean, it's about getting nourished, like I said. But it goes way beyond just filling your belly or your heart or whatever it is that you need. Hex 27 counsels us to *contemplate* our nourishment and become clear about it. It also says that this contemplation of nourishment, through which we thoroughly familiarise ourself with its nature, arises out of a concern for substantial, quality food.

Okay, so in your case, what is substantial, quality love? How do you get it? I suppose it's as true of love as it is of friendship that the best way to get it is to be it. You know - the best way to get friendship is be a good friend. Loving people draw love.

But aside from talking about how you can get love, I'm really interested in the fact that you drew *27* in answer to your question. Don't take that for granted. 27's about nourishment, which means that the Yi is saying that for you, love is like food. Or *is* food. Think about that for a moment. For you, love isn't something that just enhances your existence; it isn't a passing excitement; it isn't a learning experience; it's something you NEED to survive. Okay, ALL of us need love. But for you it's written in great big letters that flash like a neon sign. My guess is that when you get the message you will start making the changes necessary to get your needs met.

http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=3727

new.

sort of the way you "plant" things when your desire to grow is in that one very moment. but more about growing through time, calling this one instantly important and setting a crystal on it.

your fingers are gentle. against mine. the soil is soft. it moves once we barely touch it. but i think its important for us to dig two fingers each, into the soil. open the wound and let drops fall in. its january now...